Friday, April 17, 2009

has it really only been five days?


You would not be wrong if you sensed a cataclysmic shift in my little world in the last few days, and the fact that you had to log in to read this is but one little piece of proof. I've had a hell of a year this week, and it's going to take a while to get into. But rest assured that I will get into it. It's not going to be an easy story to tell, but I have a sneaking hunch it's going to have a happy ending. And that alone is worth a post.


But let's get some business out of the way first. Right off the bat I have to thank all of you for the wonderful emails and various other types of correspondence. You'll never know how much it means to me. It's not an exaggeration to say that in the heat of the moment I came perilously close to just throwing in the towel, but I couldn't take that final step. I simply couldn't do it. Keeping going is a risk, but I'm willing to take it.


And here's why. I strongly doubt that the FX would have gone to the trouble to create a name for himself in order to read this. Not impossible, but highly unlikely. (And, if I may add, for a truly hilarious reason.) As for my buddy Anonymous, your guess is as good as mine. A lot of requests came from lurkers who never comment, and even though most of them rang quite true there were a couple that set some alarms off in my head. A few of them I even emailed back, but here's the thing. The internet is set up for anonymity, and this is doubly true if you're dealing with someone with some computer knowledge, which I am. If they want in, they'll find a way to do it.


My bottom line? If the big A is here...oh, well. I'm not terribly concerned by it. I have a feeling that I'm dealing with a "The enemy of my enemy is my friend" situation and, to be perfectly frank, I don't give a damn. So there.


Now, having said that, I'm blocking anonymous comments, or at least I'm trying to. I'd really appreciate it if comments could be easily identified with their writer, although I know some people have trouble commenting on their own accounts. If you have to be ID'd as anonymous, could you please (in the body of the comment) say who you are? Just as common courtesy? So we can all get to know each other?


I'm not trying to be a pill, but I have several stat counters and site trackers loaded on this blog... and I have a delete button, which I'm not afraid to use. If the iffy comments start back up - especially if I can track them down as specifically as I can - I most certainly will. I have absolutely no problem with the content in those comments, it's the coy hiding in the shadows that I object to. Please - feel free at any time to point out any and all character and personality flaws of mine that you have issues with. I can take it. Really. I've had a lot of practice this week.


Alright! Are we ready to roll?

34 comments:

forensicator214 said...

Count me in! Sounds like all you need is a convertible, some shades and the open road. Man, now I want to go watch "Thelma and Louise."

Rositta said...

There, I'm the first and you know who I am. Your are right though, anyone could have opened a phony account to get your invite and like you say, not much you can do except track it. I wish you luck and just keep writing. I've been through most of what you are now going through albeit with a little physical abuse thrown in just for good measure. I never write about it though because my son reads my blog and now that the FX is deceased why bother. Good luck...ciao

Altaglow said...

Well, we finally made it here. Seems like a big trip but arriving makes all the difference. Love!

lv4921391 said...

yes, it seems i set up a blog maybe a couple years ago and had to go there to get set up...no problem with that...when i clicked on your RC favorite acct i was directed to it immediately...it's working well. Glad to be here, RC.

ped crossing said...

I'm glad it has worked. I'm glad you didn't bail. I'm on the edge of my seat, while I am thankful for my relatively boring little existence. And I will always ID myself. Take care, I am glad you are optimistic for a happy ending!

Stacie said...

I am so glad that you're still writing. :-)

aims said...

Looking forward to the rest of the story - no matter what happens.

-Ann said...

I'm so glad you didn't give it up. :)

Frances said...

Hey - thanks for the invitation and glad to be here.
Hope it works to keep the nasties at bay.
hugs

Maggie May said...

Yes, ready to roll.
Let's hope you have no further trouble RC.
At least you have the know how to do this switch over! I would be in a mess.

belle said...

Am hanging on for the roller coaster ride :) So glad you carried on and thanks for the invite.

auntiegwen said...

Thanks for having me xx

Mya said...

Blimey, I'm distracted by chocolate eggs for a couple of days....and look what happens! All hell lets loose! I'm very happy to be here, and if I have to sign in to read your posts, it matters not. You're well worth worth the extra effort.

Mya x

speccy said...

delighted to be here! When chaos enters my life I just want to hide under a rock somewhere- I'm so glad you went all techhy and allowed us to stay with you. All best wishes

Photographer Extraordinaire said...

Long time lurker here, really love your blog. Thanks for letting me join. You have been on my prayer list from the start. Hang in there.

Aoj and The Hounds said...

We're rolling!

Studentmum said...

Thanks for adding me - I will come out of lurkdom a bit more often - to justify your trust in me as a reader.

Jen said...

I have been out of the loop so long, I had no idea what was going on. That's what I get for being wrapped up in my own pity party.

I'm here, and I'm reading! And just think of how freeing this is!

Akelamalu said...

It's always such a shame when people have to go private with their blogs but here you are and so are we. Thanks for inviting me. x

Flutterby said...

Thank you for inviting me to your round table. And yes, let's roll - it's a brave new world around here.

Rose said...

Glad you're continuing; I would have missed you. What happened to the older posts? Do they come back or not?

Mimi said...

Absolutely ready to roll, looking forward to your next post, and I for one am glad that you didn't throw in the towel. Thanks for inviting me to join, i raise my coffee cup right now to toast you and the new you! mimi

Katy said...

Thank you for the invite to share in your journey. I'm glad you see a light at the end of this insane tunnel. It can't come soon enough!

Cath said...

Yup we're ready to roll.
I know exactly what you mean - it is the "slyness" of it that knocks you off centre. I'm the same.

For the record, I am sure you know this, but if you have an old email of FX's or of who you think Anon is, then pull the ip address off it. Then do a search on your stat counter for that ip address. If it isn';t there, it is possible that they have a different ip address now, but less likely. If it is there, you can identify who is reading your blog and what's more, exactly which pages they seem to be so interested in. That is how I knew my neighbour was reading and what she was reading. We had previously (and recently in her case in an attempt to be "friendly") sent emails. Those emails had the ip address of her computer. The rest was easy.

So, thanks for the invite and look forward to seeing you again!

Angie said...

Thanks so much for the invitation! Good luck on your journey!

Autumn said...

You have no idea how happy I was to see the invite in my inbox this morning. Thanks for letting me continue to enjoy your writing.

ehlers.dana said...

Thanks so much for the invite. Reading about your life helps me to keep mine in perspective. So glad you didn't throw in the towel. Dana

KL Crab said...

congrats and let's roll!

Kila said...

Glad you're still with us. Let the party begin!

daisydot said...

Your bump in the road and the need to go private pushed me into setting up a google a/c. End result is that I've stopped being a 'lurker' and turned into a 'commentator'. Good work!

LCM said...

Yay! I crossed my fingers when I typed in my address. Thanks for adding me.

Amy said...

Golly, this is like sneaking into the teachers' lounge in 4th grade.

Tians.sis said...

So glad to be here,your the sunshine of my day!love

Lmckabb said...

Thank you for letting me continue to enjoy your blog.