Thursday, September 11, 2008

does she see what I see?

I've got nothing. Truly. The brain is set on fry mode.

I've just spent the entire day listening to speakers talk about really uplifting topics. Sexual assault. Domestic violence. Child abuse. Date rape drugs. Safety plans. Looked at picture after picture documenting injuries, and heard personal testimonials from survivors. Listened to the abusers comments about why they do what they do - which is guaranteed to keep me awake tonight. Starting learning about collecting evidence and how to testify in court so the defense attorneys don't chew you up and spit you out. (This is going to be a riot. My own attorney scares the shit out of me...and she's on my side.) And only four more days to go...

I have just two things to say.

What the hell was I thinking?

and goodnight.


Sandy said...

You were thinking, "knowledge is power" and "maybe this will make my life look better in comparison".

Does it?

There you could always be worse. Feel free to just slap me.

Altaglow said...

You're thinking about how you can make things better. Just like you always do. Love!

Devon said...

You need this, here is some humor for the night!

Q: What do you have when you have 100 lawyers buried up to their neck in sand?

A: Not enough sand.

I like to believe that for every sicko in the world, there are 10 people who would do all they could to help a stranger.

Janie said...

Ditto Devon.

You're doing the right thing.

Maggie May said...

Yes...... just hang in there.

Frances said...

You are being strong - I have a friend who takes notes for Child Protection interviews. I don't know how she does it. To make it worse, she can't speak about her work, just has to absorb what she hears and deal with it.
Hope you cope with this on top of everything else. Keep well.

Amy said...

So, why do abusers do what they do?

And keep heart. One of the hospitals here has a sexual assault emergency room. They do a lot of good. Learning what you're learning will help people even if it makes you puke.

aims said...

Having been abused and then lived with an extremely abusive person who thought beating me up was fun and something he put on his daily 'to do' list -'s made me want to help others who find themselves in that situation.

Some people will hide for the rest of their lives - some will shout to the world the wrongs they have endured in the hope they can make them right.

Be there for us RC. We do need a kind heart to listen and to help.

Akelamalu said...

Hang in there, it will be OK. x

Tiggerlane said...

Wow...I haven't visited in a while...good grief!

I don't think I could sit for one minute and listen to what abusers had to say. I am proud of you.

But even more proud for your bravery and ability not to completely lose control over the last few days. Sigh.

I'm gonna go hug my four-legged friend.

CrazyCath said...

You were thinking "Maybe I could learn something that would help me do my job better" maybe?
Now you are thinking "I am going to sleep!!!!" Yes?