Tuesday, September 2, 2008

in the dumps


Some days, no matter what you do...


you're still blue.


And rather than just chalk it up to the fact that everyone is blue from time to time, you have to analyze to death why you feel so rotten. Does this help? Hell, no it doesn't. It simply allows you to wallow in your blueness rather than letting it takes its course and eventually go away on its own.


Then, to make it even better, you make mental lists. Lists of why you could be blue. Does this help? Hell, no it doesn't. See above. But it does at least serve the purpose of luring you into not attempting anything productive to snap you out of your blueness, which ensures that your mood will just hang on and on.


RC - ridiculously convoluted. Or revolting complainer. How about really childish? Feel free to chime in.


There are several good reasons why I could be feeling blue. Yet another argument with Sasquatch. The worry about getting Gumby's lab results tomorrow. His ebbing and flowing anxiety issues. The fear of dog surgery - and what they'll find. The prospect of three straight days of work, since I changed my schedule around so I'd be able to schlep said dog to and from the vets Friday. Not to mention holding his paw when his canine sisters get a load of his lampshade collar and laugh themselves silly. The fact that due to construction at work, the Diet Coke fountain dispenser will be out of commission for a week. The realization that Bunco is at my house next week for my yearly turn...and my house looks grim and unloved. The further realization that the day after Bunco I start an intensive five day certification class for work, a certification that I thought I really wanted to get, but is starting to scare the crap out of me. I'm afraid it may be more pressure than I can handle right now, but it's too late to back out.


Then again, it could be that feeling blue from time to time is what normal human beings do. It's not like there's anything really wrong with it. Some days you're up, some days you're down, and the next day you wake up and it's all better. If not the next day, then maybe the day after that. The blues are temporary, right?


Right?

17 comments:

Janie said...

I'd cancel the bunko. Provide the food and the prize, and talk someone else into switching with you. Sounds like you need a break, chica!

I'll be praying for you.

Janie said...

And...blues are temporary!

Eileen said...

RC,
You know the blues are temporary because feelings do change. However, there are times when the blues are so overwhelming it is a good time to get support. I think you and I both know this, and that is what makes it even harder.

Sending love to you.

Iota said...

The blues do come and go, but there are sometimes reasons, so it is sometimes good to be Rationally Challenging.

Wisewebwoman said...

This too shall pass is a favourite mantra of mine when the blues hit. As they do.
we can appreciate the good times all the more.
At least that is what I tell myself.
And force myself to do the do things. Or 10 minutes worth followed by a good break. Cos I'm worth it. On the good days.
XO
WWW

ped crossing said...

I hear you and am so there with you. Sadly, I know the cause of mine and that person isn't going anywhere.I hope it looks up soon.

Maggie May said...

Yeah..... definitely right! Just hang in there. You will be fine. You are STRONG!

Potty Mummy said...

Absolutely right, RC. The blues ARE temporary. And once you get your teeth into the Bunco night and the class you'll be fine. As for the other stuff - well, that's what's probably making you blue - and will be thinking of you when you tackle those. Just remember; you're a mum. You can do ANYTHING! (Well, that's what we tell them, right?)

Aoj and The Lurchers said...

I bloody hope so RC.

Flowerpot said...

Yes blues are temporary. Some last longer than others, but they DO GO EVENTUALLY! Repeat after me...

kitten said...

HUGS! The blues will come and go. I just had a blue day myself. If we just let it run it's coarse it will go. If we wallow in it, it will linger. We are not robots and being blue every now is okay!
You are in my prayers!

laurie said...

it's not like those bunco chicks haven't seen your house before.

have them over and have some fun!

Lil Mouse said...

you describe the blues cycle perfectly. for a long time i fell into the trap and would feel bad for weeks. they should be a temporary thing. try to take one thing at a time and do something for yourself that reminds you that everythign ISNT so bad. put your kids to work helping to clean the house, with reward promises or lack of punishment promises or whatever you use to keep things tidy and/or at least the door shut to their rooms during bunco. have a good time and do things that dont require a lot of clean up. chips and dip, microwave popcorn, canned or bottled beverages that require no dishes, bowls of halloween candy, etc. that way everything goes in the trash or the recycle bin and/or dishwasher. if you HAVE to provide dinner, order in. as for your class, just go in to LEARN and you'll do fine on the certification, because if you're focused on the learning, everything else will come in naturally. when i get the blues now, I tell myself it could be worse, i could be dead, broke, my hubby could be out of work, etc. etc. and soon i realize how good things REALLY are. this turn around only happened after i almost died due to appendicitis. (spelled wrong).. anyway, i'm no miss mary sunshine, but i 'GET REAL' with myself much more often, i allow a tad bit of wallowing and then blast music, think of all teh good things in my life versus bad, and use some elbow grease on something that is 'bugging' me, like you know, that pile of dishes festering from last night. works every time.

aims said...

I haven't a clue what Bunko is but I do know about being blue.

After my sojourn in the hall for nine months followed by 5 years of mental blankness - I seem to have tons of experience in being blue.

I just gave my brother this lecture three days ago RC - so listen up!

It's easy to blue. Easier in fact to be blue than it is to be happy. That's why it's harder to smile - because you have to use muscles to do so. The same with being blue - you have to work at being happy and staying happy. Sometimes it's more like a job. Still - it's incredibly easy to slide back into being blue.

So - all these horrible things you must deal with? Take them one at a time. Just one at a time. They aren't all going to happen on the same day are they? And if they are - still - they don't happen simultaneously. So - big breath - and smile. You are far stronger than you give yourself credit for. Remember that.

Check that mirror again - and smile.

Devon said...

Don't sweat the bunko, the few times I have been a sub, all I remember are the conversations and laughing, eatting and playing. Light a smelly candle and instant homey.

We all get the blues at times, this is not a defect, but rather inspiration for good blogging material! Just kidding.

I have noticed when I get seriously cranky, it is usually due to some fear. I was always a bitch shopping with my kids. They weren't being bad, rather I was stressed trying to get stuff done while keeping an eye on them.

This may be related to the lab results... it makes sense that you would have this worst case scenario fear with your work background. I hope you feel better soon!

Anonymous said...

I have been thinking about Gumby, I really hope all is well with him. Has Lu called and comiserated with him? In fact, I think about your family and pray that all is well and this feeling you have will disappear.I think the beginning of school is hard on everyone after a summer of "nothing to do". Take care of yourself, I agree get someone to switch with you,next month will be better. Hang in there. KC Ginny

Jo Beaufoix said...

Definitley temporary, but still very real when they are there. Will be thinking of you tomorrow.